Monday brought the season finale of one of my obsessions...Gossip Girl. Chuck Bass uttered these words to the woman he loves more than anything in the world...before letting her go to have not great love, but right love. As much as it pained Chuck to let Blair go, as he told her...there is a difference between great love, and good love.
So, let that be the topic of this blog, as I find myself falling in love with V...scary thought considering my world has been turned upside down and all around in one month, considering that how much I miss him when he is not here beside me, how much his presence just calms me...how his touch or how he kisses my hand...tells me all that is unspoken...all of it.
Which is better? Right love or great love? I think they are both good, but if I had to chose, I would chose great love...as that love is always the most consuming, passionate, dark, intense, and beautiful. Right love is good too, safe, simple, caring. I have always been a passionate person with everything, but more so with whom I falling in love with. I was telling V this morning, that the reason I love the Twilight books ( yup, and he laughed at me for having pictures of the vampires in the book saved on my computer..), is that the moral of the story is not good against evil, or getting the girl, but no matter who you love in your life, you might love someone more or another less, but there will always be only one person that you will love differently than anyone else. That to me is great love, loving someone with all your heart, missing them when they are gone, wanting to hear them even for a second, having them call you their Bella, kissing your hand over and over, holding you with care in their arms as your rest together, but also, being there to hold your hand when you tell them the dark parts of your life, encouraging you when your having a bad day, and knowing, that no matter what life throws your way- that he will be there for you.
Some might call me a fool or tell me that I am throwing caution to the wind with V...but I can't explain how I feel without say, and without doubt...that this relationship is becoming a great love. The reason I know this, is because he told me from the beginning that he was selfish when it came to riding his motorcycle with his friends, and I told him...I completely understand. But he told me that he wants to stop being selfish, for me, he doesn't want to do that to me, and that I shouldn't allow him to do that. I told him, I don't want to tell you not to do something, because then you will resent me, and that is not what I want or who I am. I told him that he could ride all he wants, and break plans with me to do so...so long as he make me a part of it, some how , some way. The look that was giving to me by those big brown eyes...is the look of a man totally enchanted. Good love is easy...two people love each other and are simple, great love, is made from the ashes of bad past relationships, personal hurts, and failures. V rose from his ashes when he spoke those words to me ...and I rose from mine, when I replied.
Are you with your great love? Or are you with your good love? Love is love, no matter what type...because being able to love is a gift from God, by him loving us, it enabled us, to love others...
As the song goes.. ".Listen to your heart, when he is calling for you..."
xoxo
BT&HB
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