"The worst thing about crossing a line...is when you don't know you already have."
All of us have crossed lines, pushed boundaries, suffered, triumphed and prospered. But how do you know you have crossed a line with someone in your life? It could be your boss, a family member, boyfriend, friend, associate or a total stranger for that matter. How do you know that you have stepped on their boundary line??? You don't often times, just as my quote above states...you have, you just don't know it.
Crossing a line could mean many things, sometimes we say things to friends that will sucker punch them and we carry on without knowing, while they will go on to complain to anyone who would listen about what a thoughtless person you are and how could you do something like that. It has happened to me many times, I have gone through enough, and have always been supportive and a good listener for anyone who needs it. But what about me? Why must I still suffer people stepping across my line and feel that they know what is best for me and my life?? My boss is a good example of this. She is a good person at times, and then other times, it is almost as if she has a bipolar personality...she will take what I say in defence of myself...and make me feel like I have made a big deal out of nothing at all...and not to take things personal. I am sorry, but if you attack my lifestyle, my personal beliefs and how I choose to go about my life...should you not take it personally and look at it as either envy or her short comings?? I have thought about this, and as much as I have always tried to do good towards others....she just stepped across my line and pushed all of my buttons!
I was ready to tell her, enough...when I talk to her...she tells me that I never shut it, when I choose not to say anything at all...she will ask me what is wrong. I had no idea that my mood or state of mind ( which ever state that is) ...is the blood line of my department. I am tired to be honest with you...tired of putting paper in the printer, tired of trying to help her and my co-worker only to have them say that I bring it upon myself and don't need to do the things I do. Having my boss tell me on Friday just as I was leaving for the first full week I have had off all year...." you have an awesome week...I am going to get so much done with you not here, and in peace and quite .." really??? GFYS ...that is rude beyond rude...that is why I took all the paper out of the printer and the packages of extra back to the stock room- childish, but they deserve it.
How do I tell her she crossed the line with me? I am a Scorpio, there is no grey with me...either I like you or I don't I am guarded and protect my personal life from bloodsuckers ...but when your with someone more than your with your own family...it is kind of hard not to take things personal. I am proud of all that I have accomplished, and there is much more that I am working on...so, to her and to everyone out there I leave you with this thought:
" be kind to one another, think about how it would feel to be on the other end of the sword, you reap what you sow, what goes around comes around, love as if today is your last...and watch where you step."
xoxo
BT&HB
