I have been itching to write this post all day, it seems that I am not the only who feels unsteady on her feet...like the ground, or me is shifting in a big way..I accept it and am going to allow it to happen. This thought came to me this morning. I thought about what this meant to me, and what this meant for my goals and my intentions for my life.
We do things because we have to. We have to eat, sleep, work, etc...but are you doing all of that because you want to or because you feel you have to?? The reason I ask, is because this past week I was faced with the doubt that always seems to creep up on me when I am working on a goal. The minute is feels like I have to, I don't want to anymore. Yesterday ( and today) I didn't train, I didn't really follow my clean eating plan, I didn't worry about what I ate or didn't eat..had toast for the first time in over 10 months ( crazy I know) and it felt good. Good not because my ego wanted it, but because it was a test, it became crystal clear...I eat clean and train, take care of myself...not because I have to ( or paid my trainer for the program, or doctor, or a magazine, book, website) told me I had too - but because I want to.
That feeling when it came over me...was truly beautiful...even though I still feel a bit off balance, I know that now, I do things because I want to...not because I have to.
Knowing what you want and what you have to do to get what you want are different that wanting and having. If you want what you have, you will always have what you want.
The time is now, everyone seems to be slipping into the new year unsteady and off balance, like our planet is shifting on it axis ...we have to all find our balance, we have to tilt our world up right again. My first step was that golden second, when I surrendered, and realized, that I want what I have, and I have all that I want..because what you want, wants you.
xoxo
BT&HB
P.S. Coach C is not going to be happy with the way this week went, but knowing that I know...the wanting is on fire, and nothing can stop me from having what I want.
Friday, January 25, 2013
Thursday, January 17, 2013
What's Waiting???
" What is waiting for me in the direction I don't take?" - Jack Kerouac
I don't look at how far I have yet to go, but how far I have come. Many of us are still looking outside ourselves to find the right person or thing and we will be blissfully happy. But instead, it makes for a human race that is confused and frustrated, everything seems to be in chaos and we don't seem to have anything to fall back on or anything new to take it's place. Yet, we can't go back, we must move forward into the unknown to create new relationships, new roads to follow, new passions and a new life.
I understand now, that in order to do this, it is important to love yourself. If your committed to living your truth, you will attract the same. Enjoying your own company allows you to have fun with whoever your with. To feel the energy flowing in you - one that you created and one, that is your truth...and no one else.
I struggle with thoughts just like everyone else. I am a happy and positive person, I laugh more than I did before, I smile more, and love more...but the dark side comes up every now and then...my goal is not to only think positive, but also to embrace and accept the dark parts of me..when you accept the dark side of you-they are easier to control and over time will show up less frequently. Lately, I have been wondering to myself what to do next? I have set a goal for myself and it is coming along quite nice, a lot of hard work...but worth everything. But as I am working on my goal...and I know how much I can offer others..the question is...how do I go about helping people to come over to the lighter side of life??
My passion is health and fitness, but with a twist. I also love to listen to people, and offer advice...because I have a gift of knowing just what to say to make them instantly feel better ( don't get me wrong, I don't tell them what they want to hear...I give them encouragement and sometimes tough love). I am seeing at this time of year, the same thing...people jumping on the next "diet /body/mind/soul/money/relationship make over for the new year. I don't know about you- but everyday is a chance to start again, not to be better than someone else, but to be better than you were yesterday. Many people fail, many don't - but what I am seeing, is people aren't listening to themselves, their inner guides, because of fear. You don't need someone to tell you that you will have amazing abs, lean legs, more money, have someone fall in love with you, a flush bank account all in less than a month - you know and I know...that it is just not true, the truth is inside of you. How do I get people to follow a healthy lifestyle while encouraging them to do what is right for them?
Right now, the path before me is long...I can't see the end of the road...but it is not the destination that is important, because you never really "make it" but the joureny. I am grateful and blessed to have been given this life...and no matter which road I choose, what will be waiting for me, is what I know in my heart, that it is for me.
Rebels will fight against any energy it fears...I have accepted the rebel within me, and it walks beside my light side, hand in hand they walk - the good and the bad, to allow me to take the next step in the direction of my heart.
xoxo
BT&HB
I don't look at how far I have yet to go, but how far I have come. Many of us are still looking outside ourselves to find the right person or thing and we will be blissfully happy. But instead, it makes for a human race that is confused and frustrated, everything seems to be in chaos and we don't seem to have anything to fall back on or anything new to take it's place. Yet, we can't go back, we must move forward into the unknown to create new relationships, new roads to follow, new passions and a new life.
I understand now, that in order to do this, it is important to love yourself. If your committed to living your truth, you will attract the same. Enjoying your own company allows you to have fun with whoever your with. To feel the energy flowing in you - one that you created and one, that is your truth...and no one else.
I struggle with thoughts just like everyone else. I am a happy and positive person, I laugh more than I did before, I smile more, and love more...but the dark side comes up every now and then...my goal is not to only think positive, but also to embrace and accept the dark parts of me..when you accept the dark side of you-they are easier to control and over time will show up less frequently. Lately, I have been wondering to myself what to do next? I have set a goal for myself and it is coming along quite nice, a lot of hard work...but worth everything. But as I am working on my goal...and I know how much I can offer others..the question is...how do I go about helping people to come over to the lighter side of life??
My passion is health and fitness, but with a twist. I also love to listen to people, and offer advice...because I have a gift of knowing just what to say to make them instantly feel better ( don't get me wrong, I don't tell them what they want to hear...I give them encouragement and sometimes tough love). I am seeing at this time of year, the same thing...people jumping on the next "diet /body/mind/soul/money/relationship make over for the new year. I don't know about you- but everyday is a chance to start again, not to be better than someone else, but to be better than you were yesterday. Many people fail, many don't - but what I am seeing, is people aren't listening to themselves, their inner guides, because of fear. You don't need someone to tell you that you will have amazing abs, lean legs, more money, have someone fall in love with you, a flush bank account all in less than a month - you know and I know...that it is just not true, the truth is inside of you. How do I get people to follow a healthy lifestyle while encouraging them to do what is right for them?
Right now, the path before me is long...I can't see the end of the road...but it is not the destination that is important, because you never really "make it" but the joureny. I am grateful and blessed to have been given this life...and no matter which road I choose, what will be waiting for me, is what I know in my heart, that it is for me.
Rebels will fight against any energy it fears...I have accepted the rebel within me, and it walks beside my light side, hand in hand they walk - the good and the bad, to allow me to take the next step in the direction of my heart.
xoxo
BT&HB
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
2012...Thanks For the Lessons
" A change of feelings is a change of destiny." - Neville
Happy New Year Everyone - Welcome 2013...something tells me this is going to be one happy, loving and beautiful year.
I woke up late this morning - which is not like the early bird me...but on the last day of 2012, I worked, went to the gym to train ( entering month two with Coach C) felt off, my head was killing me, my body was suffering from bloating and gas..and spent the night with my Mom and a few movies and a shot of Sambuca :)
It was a quite new years, but I had a sense that the feelings that were running through me all day yesterday...were running for the last time. I learned a lot about myself, people, my body, my heart...my gift, my path, what I did to bring me where I stood last year, and knowing where I came from, and not wanting to go back there - is my motivation for life.
2012 was filled with some big changes for me. I remember starting the year just so defeated. I was not depressed per say, but not happy. It was a year ago this month, that I found A through my friend D, and have been working with her every week since then. At times during the year ( and believe me, it wasn't pretty), I would cry and get angry...wondering how long I have to wait for everything to come full circle, to arrive and finally be healthy, fit, loved, loving and all around everything I dreamed. But through those times of darkness - light started to shine, my heart started to open, I gained acceptance for myself, realized what I was doing all the years before, was avoiding my truth. I dropped the need for approval, didn't believe everything everyone told me, found my voice and realized that you don't need to "arrive" because part of life and healing, is the journey you take to get there. You shouldn't say " once I lose, once I buy, once I practice for X amount of hours..." then I will be happy. Happiness is finishing a healthy meal and saying ..." that was good, thank you." happiness is waking up and thanking God, and stating..." today is going to be a beautiful day!". Happiness is placing a picture of what you would like to become or accomplish, put it in your imagination and actually feel what that would feel like..and live from the end.
So, I want to thank 2012, for bring me to this day and all the lessons it's brought me. Thank you for leading me to the right path, finding the things I needed when I needed them, helping me, never leaving me...and forever loving me. 2013, I welcome you with all the light that was shining this morning when I awoke, I thought to myself ..."wow! what better way to start the new year than a day filled with so much light...and all this love??" 2013 I feel with everything in me, that it will be one filled with all that I am imagined, because after all - if you start from the end, get up go, look for the miracles in each day...how could it turn out other than how you imagined???
So my friends, welcome 2013 with open arms, open eyes and an open heart, and I leave you with this quote from Uell Stanley Anderson:
" Everything which you can conceive and accept is yours! Entertain no doubt. Refuse to accept worry or hurry or fear. That which knows and does everything is inside you and harkens to the slightest whisper."
xoxo
BT&HB
Happy New Year Everyone - Welcome 2013...something tells me this is going to be one happy, loving and beautiful year.
I woke up late this morning - which is not like the early bird me...but on the last day of 2012, I worked, went to the gym to train ( entering month two with Coach C) felt off, my head was killing me, my body was suffering from bloating and gas..and spent the night with my Mom and a few movies and a shot of Sambuca :)
It was a quite new years, but I had a sense that the feelings that were running through me all day yesterday...were running for the last time. I learned a lot about myself, people, my body, my heart...my gift, my path, what I did to bring me where I stood last year, and knowing where I came from, and not wanting to go back there - is my motivation for life.
2012 was filled with some big changes for me. I remember starting the year just so defeated. I was not depressed per say, but not happy. It was a year ago this month, that I found A through my friend D, and have been working with her every week since then. At times during the year ( and believe me, it wasn't pretty), I would cry and get angry...wondering how long I have to wait for everything to come full circle, to arrive and finally be healthy, fit, loved, loving and all around everything I dreamed. But through those times of darkness - light started to shine, my heart started to open, I gained acceptance for myself, realized what I was doing all the years before, was avoiding my truth. I dropped the need for approval, didn't believe everything everyone told me, found my voice and realized that you don't need to "arrive" because part of life and healing, is the journey you take to get there. You shouldn't say " once I lose, once I buy, once I practice for X amount of hours..." then I will be happy. Happiness is finishing a healthy meal and saying ..." that was good, thank you." happiness is waking up and thanking God, and stating..." today is going to be a beautiful day!". Happiness is placing a picture of what you would like to become or accomplish, put it in your imagination and actually feel what that would feel like..and live from the end.
So, I want to thank 2012, for bring me to this day and all the lessons it's brought me. Thank you for leading me to the right path, finding the things I needed when I needed them, helping me, never leaving me...and forever loving me. 2013, I welcome you with all the light that was shining this morning when I awoke, I thought to myself ..."wow! what better way to start the new year than a day filled with so much light...and all this love??" 2013 I feel with everything in me, that it will be one filled with all that I am imagined, because after all - if you start from the end, get up go, look for the miracles in each day...how could it turn out other than how you imagined???
So my friends, welcome 2013 with open arms, open eyes and an open heart, and I leave you with this quote from Uell Stanley Anderson:
" Everything which you can conceive and accept is yours! Entertain no doubt. Refuse to accept worry or hurry or fear. That which knows and does everything is inside you and harkens to the slightest whisper."
xoxo
BT&HB
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