Going with the Flow ...

As you know from my previous post, I have every reason to be on cloud nine...in more ways than one.  Now, don't get me wrong, I don't need a guy to make me happy...but everything does look better when your in that first blush of a relationship.  Little bit premature to say "relationship", truly, I don't see it going on any other road, but that one. 

I always wondered WTF people were talking about when they said love at first sight..or just knowing they are the "one".  I had many relationships, bad ones, boring ones, fun ones, passionate ones...but this is different.  I never felt this way before, almost like we don't need to "impress" one another, that the comfort level is there and it is easy between us.  Who give someone a pet name after a few days?  Well, I have one, he calls me bella and doesn't miss one day without telling me how beautiful I am to him and how he misses me.  His sister gave birth this week and he texted me telling me that I don't know how much he wanted me there with him...I haven't met his family yet ( that is a bit too early for me), which brings me to another point.

I have always been guarded with my feelings, just habit or a fear of being hurt, or wanting or liking the other person more than they like me...I have had my heart broken so many times..but with V I know that he will never break my heart, he will hold it with care in his hands ( and he has the strongest hands I have ever seen!).  We spent a wonderful Friday night together and we had a great time just being with each  other.  On Saturday morning I felt sad for some reason..and I realized that it was the old feeling of them not wanting me the next day for something I said or did..stopping myself from feeling that was a huge step for me..I stopped and told the doubt and fear to go fax itself and file it under B for bullshit, because he gave me no indication that he didn't want to see me again.  All woman do that, but so do men.  Overcoming your fear of rejection and looking at yourself as a worthy person, takes a lot of self-esteem.  My self-esteem and love for myself, is what drew V to me in the first place...when your happy with yourself, someone to share that happiness with you, will be drawn to you like a magnet. 

Virgo Man & Scorpio Woman
" The relationship between a Virgo man and a Scorpio woman will result in great compatibility.  Both of them gel with each other beautifully, making up the other's disability now and then, making a perfect union.  There are numerous characteristics which are common to both hence, things will turn out to be very pleasant at the end.  While the Scorpio female is overly expressive, the Virgo male may turn out to be impassive.  However, they would hold deep sense of admiration for each other - he would have high regards for her strength and resolve and she, in turn would respect his need for perfection." - indiaserver.com

This just blew my mind...if that doesn't sound like myself and V..I don't know what does.  Children just know things adults refuse to see...or admit.  My nephew asked me on Friday.." your going out with the same guy again?" yes, I said..." is he nice?" yes, very nice I replied, and to that he asked when he will meet him and he is coming to his birthday party.  As much as that freaked me out...the truth of the matter is, going with the flow...brings you all the things you crave and are afraid of...in order for you to go with the flow and get swept away.  

Like I have told all my girlfriends..."don't worry, a guy will come along and knock you right on your ass..." consider me knocked on my ass and blown away.

xoxo
BT&HB
P.S.  The song with you by Chris Brown  reminds me of V and gets better every single time I listen to it.