Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Evny...the Destroyer of Self-Esteem

 " Do not overrate what you have received, nor envy others.  He who envies others does not obtain peace of mind".  Buddha

"Envy comes from people's ignorance of, or lack of belief in, their own gifts". ~ Jean Vanier
 
" God's truth judges created things out of love, the Satan's truth judges them out of envy and hatred". ~ Dietrich Bonhoeffer  
Envy, green-eyed monster, one of the seven deadly sins, evil eye call it what you like, either way, it is truly deadly, to the body and mind.  Last week I came face to face with envy with no one other than my boss...and that was something I always suspected, but never thought in a million years she would actually be envious of me.  

I don't envy anyone, I never did.  Sure, I would say off hand, I loved that girl's bag or shoes, and I would love to buy them....but never,ever,did I say I wanted to be that person.  I don't know, to me it is just foolish and a waste of energy to spend your time wanting what other people have, what about what you have and what you want?  Do you know what that is?  That is where self-esteem comes in.  If you have low self-esteem, you tend to be more jealous and envious of others, because you are not happy with yourself.  You wished you were the rich guy or girl, the one that makes friends easily, the one that always gets praised at work...the one that nothing ever seems to go wrong for them.  We all can have that in our lives, if we just believe in ourselves.  The worst type of green-eyed monster is the one that make a mockery of your life, makes fun of how you choose to live it and makes you think that maybe your not good enough.  Those are the people that you should steer clear of.  In my case, it is a bit hard, since I have to work daily with my boss....but that day everything became crystal clear.....it is not me, like I once thought...but her.  Her jealousy of how close my family is, how I chose to still live at home and be in the circle of love and compassion, how I have a passion for treating others with respect and love, and how easily everyone likes to be around me...tough for you, if she took off her blinders, she would see, her life is what she made it...and only she can change it.  I cried that night after meditating, and vowed never to allow her or anyone to make me feel like my life is less, because of how I chose to live it.


Envy is worst than hate...truly it is.    Don't envy others, never think or speak ill of someone else's choice in life, because karma is a bitch, and it will come back to bite you in the ass.  

I leave you with wise words spoken by my  mother less than a week ago...she said, " it is not a sin what you put in your mouth...but a sin what comes out of it".  

xoxo
BT&HB 

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Yoga...my missing link

Couple of months ago, I felt a powerful draw to yoga.  I didn't know why, since I have tried it before and could not quite my mind enough for the one hour...I thought I would go insane.  However, this time it was different.  My body was craving a different kind of work-out, a balance if you will. 

I tried commercial yoga studios, I even tried hot yoga ( dear Lord, the dry heat was enough to melt an ice princess....and there were many in that class).  I did BodyFlow at my gym, my cousin also teaches the class there and is a certified yoga teacher...but something was missing.  I went to the classes but didn't understand the importance of breathing.  Melissa ( my wonderful new teacher..) took me under her wing and taught me how to breathe from my belly ( I have always taken my breathes through my nose, but with the upper region of my lungs, not my full lungs).  This was the link that I was missing....when you breathe deep and with you full lungs, the world becomes so much more calm, so much more clear...and so much easier. 

Breathing this way also allowed me to work-out better....impossible I thought, until I realized that I could finish the rep because I wasn't winded, the weight didn't seem so heavy because I was focused on bring air into my body...this has become my salvation...and Melissa is God sent!

They say that when the student is ready, the teacher will come, in my case, I know now why I didn't sign up with Yogatree that night back in January...why I didn't scope out another ..." hot yoga studio" ...because I was waiting for Melissa...and I was ready. 

I encourage everyone to try yoga ....really try, focus, mediate, breathe ....and you will be so much more connected to you body and soul ...it gives me peace I forgot I had, makes me stop and take a deep breath and remember that the past is gone, the future has yet to happen, but this moment is the only time we have right now. 

My goal for this year is to become a yogi....I have made other goals and I know that I will achieve them...because the peace and focus that yoga brings me ...will allow me to reach for my goals....and not just hope, but know that they will come to fruition.

So my friends....take a deep breath, release your stress, close your eyes and breathe out your doubts and breathe in you can ...because you do or do not ...there is no try.

Namaste.

xoxo
BT&HB