Do You Want To or Do You Have To???

I have been itching to write this post all day, it seems that I am not the only who feels unsteady on her feet...like the ground, or me is shifting in a big way..I accept it and am going to allow it to happen.  This thought came to me this morning.  I thought about what this meant to me, and what this meant for my goals and my intentions for my life. 

We do things because we have to.  We have to eat, sleep, work, etc...but are you doing all of that because you want to or because you feel you have to?? The reason I ask, is because this past week I was faced with the doubt that always seems to creep up on me when I am working on a goal.  The minute is feels like I have to, I don't want to anymore.  Yesterday ( and today) I didn't train, I didn't really follow my clean eating plan, I didn't worry about what I ate or didn't eat..had toast for the first time in over 10 months ( crazy I know) and it felt good.  Good not because my ego wanted it, but because it was a test, it became crystal clear...I eat clean and train, take care of myself...not because I have to ( or paid my trainer for the program, or doctor, or a magazine, book, website) told me I had too - but because I want to. 

That feeling when it came over me...was truly beautiful...even though I still feel a bit off balance, I know that now, I do things because I want to...not because I have to. 

Knowing what you want and what you have to do to get what you want are different that wanting and having.  If you want what you have, you will always have what you want.


The time is now, everyone seems to be slipping into the new year unsteady and off balance, like our planet is shifting on it axis ...we have to all find our balance, we have to tilt our world up right again.  My first step was that golden second, when I surrendered, and realized, that I want what I have, and I have all that I want..because what you want, wants you.

 xoxo
BT&HB
P.S.  Coach C is not going to be happy with the way this week went, but knowing that I know...the wanting is on fire, and nothing can stop me from having what I want.