The Storm Inside.

On Friday February 8, 2013 - mother nature unleashed a massive snow storm on my city.  I am not going to give you a run down of how bad it was and how much fell, just that yes, I did drive to work while every news station was telling everyone to stay off the roads.  Because people did, there was no where near the volume of traffic there normally is.  With my angels protection, I got to work and home safely. 

I woke that morning with a shaky feeling in me, all my senses were vibrating and I could not, calm or ground myself.  I am empathic to the feelings of others and the universe, and the storm that was raging outside...was also raging in me.  It took me all day to figure out why I felt so uneasy.  Even after they let us leave work early, and I was home safe...the vibrating was still going on.  No matter what I did, warm coffee, meditation, crystal healing, reading, napping, food - nothing, nothing would quell that raging feeling in me. 

I felt like a live wire, I cried, I was angry, and I was sad all in one.  I tried to keep my wits about me and think only good thoughts, my affirmations always make me smile, but that day, it caused me only more stress...it was as if something was raging to get out - and I figured out what that is...it is the human race and what we have become. 

I am a person who doesn't have many friends, I know many people and love each one of them...but close friends, I don't have many of, and as of late...this makes me really sad, but at the same time...hopeful and excited.  I realized that some people in my life have to go, I need to be surrounded with people who are playing the woe is me card, people who are open minded and not afraid to get to know someone just for the sake of knowing, people who love and truly want what is best for themselves - which will translate what is best for me and the universe....people, who know the difference between real live human friends, and on-line ones. 

I understand and accept that this is how the world is today, but to be faced with people daily who would much rather socialize with people they have never met and don't know ( honestly, I think that if the on-line relationships would meet - they would not like each other, or worst, see that while on-line they are witty and charming and funny, in person - not so much).  So I asked myself this, and I set my intentions to find people who are honest, loving, kind and truthful ...I am done with the liars, the woe is me, the victims, the downers...and the negative people ...I out grew them, I have grown and now my circle of friends will grow with me. 

So from today on, I am starting my new life everyday.  I am approaching every experience in a new frame of mind- and with a new state of consciousness.  I want the noblest and best for myself in every respect...when you think this way, great wonders are possible.

xoxo
BT&HB