" A change of feelings is a change of destiny." - Neville
Happy New Year Everyone - Welcome 2013...something tells me this is going to be one happy, loving and beautiful year.
I woke up late this morning - which is not like the early bird me...but on the last day of 2012, I worked, went to the gym to train ( entering month two with Coach C) felt off, my head was killing me, my body was suffering from bloating and gas..and spent the night with my Mom and a few movies and a shot of Sambuca :)
It was a quite new years, but I had a sense that the feelings that were running through me all day yesterday...were running for the last time. I learned a lot about myself, people, my body, my heart...my gift, my path, what I did to bring me where I stood last year, and knowing where I came from, and not wanting to go back there - is my motivation for life.
2012 was filled with some big changes for me. I remember starting the year just so defeated. I was not depressed per say, but not happy. It was a year ago this month, that I found A through my friend D, and have been working with her every week since then. At times during the year ( and believe me, it wasn't pretty), I would cry and get angry...wondering how long I have to wait for everything to come full circle, to arrive and finally be healthy, fit, loved, loving and all around everything I dreamed. But through those times of darkness - light started to shine, my heart started to open, I gained acceptance for myself, realized what I was doing all the years before, was avoiding my truth. I dropped the need for approval, didn't believe everything everyone told me, found my voice and realized that you don't need to "arrive" because part of life and healing, is the journey you take to get there. You shouldn't say " once I lose, once I buy, once I practice for X amount of hours..." then I will be happy. Happiness is finishing a healthy meal and saying ..." that was good, thank you." happiness is waking up and thanking God, and stating..." today is going to be a beautiful day!". Happiness is placing a picture of what you would like to become or accomplish, put it in your imagination and actually feel what that would feel like..and live from the end.
So, I want to thank 2012, for bring me to this day and all the lessons it's brought me. Thank you for leading me to the right path, finding the things I needed when I needed them, helping me, never leaving me...and forever loving me. 2013, I welcome you with all the light that was shining this morning when I awoke, I thought to myself ..."wow! what better way to start the new year than a day filled with so much light...and all this love??" 2013 I feel with everything in me, that it will be one filled with all that I am imagined, because after all - if you start from the end, get up go, look for the miracles in each day...how could it turn out other than how you imagined???
So my friends, welcome 2013 with open arms, open eyes and an open heart, and I leave you with this quote from Uell Stanley Anderson:
" Everything which you can conceive and accept is yours! Entertain no doubt. Refuse to accept worry or hurry or fear. That which knows and does everything is inside you and harkens to the slightest whisper."
xoxo
BT&HB
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