Pain & The New Moon

" Pain is pain and yours is not greater than or less than anybody else's pain and deserves to be acknowledged as such." - From the Daily OM website, April 26, 2013

Well, who knew my father has such insight.  Every morning my father just after eating his breakfast and before heading to work, will visit the website Daily OM to read the message of the day.  I tuned him into this website years ago, I didn't know he still read it, but I know that a lot of the spiritual, intuitive and hunger for answers and understanding in me, come from him.  He called me to show me the message for today - and boy, does it hit right on target with me.

Yesterday was a full/new moon.  The pain I felt yesterday was truly unbearable. I struggled to stay positive and be grateful for everything in my life, but the pain just unleashed a vicious attack, one that left me depleted to the point of anger.  I am not the only one that felt this way, many women felt the effects of the moon on their bodies and minds the past week.  This makes me question, is one pain worst than another?  Or should we be grateful for the pain we experience because their are others out there who are experiencing much worst?? Depends on your mind, and history, and what your going to do about it.

I have had some really rough days, sometimes it is just in my mind, but since I have started meditating and using affirmations daily - I saw clearly that I am using feeling ill or "off" as a reason not to move forward, to take the risk and do something new, to let go of the old me, because the new me is fighting to get out ( and boy, is she strong!).  On the other hand, the old me has been with me forever, and is not going down without a fight ...so the battle is raging, and the moon just made me more aware that the battle began long time ago, and it is time to finish this and see the dawn of a new day, and the new me. 

During my meditations, I was able to see clearly, that staying stuck and feeling ill has been my choice.  There is nothing stopping me but me, if I want to be well, I have to think well.  The mind and body are not two separate things, they are one and the same.  I felt like a ton of bricks this morning, I over slept and could barely brush my teeth.  As I was dressing for work, I thought .." this is it, you have abused your body and mind for long enough, how you thought and what you did back then will not work this time, be strong, believe and get cracking." I don't know how to explain what I feel, but it is a cross between crying with all your heart for God to help you, and the tap on your shoulder from your angels saying.." we are here waiting, and wherever you go or do, we will protect you, so go forward our child". 

I have a long way to go, but I trust that I am where I am suppose to be.  I know what makes me feel good, what makes me smile , what foods I enjoy, what exercise gets me all pumped and feeling like a champ, I know what nurtures my soul, and what heals my heart.  Once you know the answer to those questions...pain won't hurt so bad, and the moon always brings promise of a new day. 

Today, fill your heart with love and forgiveness, for those around you, and more importantly, for yourself.

XOXO
BT&HB