Your Right Path...

" What visions have you created lately that can stoke your ambition and fee your heart? Take time today to think about what you want -- in your love life, your career, or your personal development.  The universe is waiting for you to tell it what you want for yourself, so it can help put you on the right path."  - horoscope March 3, 2013

I always enjoyed reading horoscopes, I don't take them literally, but sometimes what I read either that day or a day later - sometimes makes perfect sense.  When I read the above, I was floored.  I have been meditating on what I want from life and for myself - but I am thinking from the end, as if I am already there.  I sometimes can't see myself clearly, but that is okay, because I can feel what it is like.  Feeling and picturing yourself as you imagined is very powerful.  It allows you to hope, have faith, and do your best to get there.  There are many things I want for myself, but I find some days that I don't feel strong enough to see them through.  Then I remember all the times that the universe has put things in my way at just the right time.  Nothing just happens, your thoughts make your life...what you think and put out there, comes back to you.

I took a long look at myself and my life the last year, and I saw more and more -that how I thought brought all that to me, but I also saw how when I was ready to take the next step, or crawl out of the hole I dug for myself - there was a helping hand.  Either from a book, a person, a word, a movie, or just praying to God ...I found my next step to healing.  When you chose to heal you open yourself up to facing a lot of demons, and it is not always pretty.  I will be honest, I thought I would not suffer anymore starting on this path to being better than I was yesterday, taking control of my health, my thoughts and my life ...but it is sometimes like a near death experience.  Today is one of those days, I felt amazing yesterday, I ate well, worked out hard, enjoyed my time with my family - and then today..BOOM, I felt knocked down, like I was hit with a wrecking ball. 

I kept hearing the same thing today but in different ways, and what was it I kept hearing?? That changing your physically form to out run your demons will not work, unless you change your mind set.  That is the thorn in my side, that no matter how much I have changed my thoughts and mind...the doubt is still there, the fear is still in me, and slowly, with each day, the grip it has on me is getting weaker, and the ego part of me wants to hold on, but the new me...is stronger than the old me every was.

I don't know what or who I will find on this path of life, but I do know, that I accept what happens each day, I practice gratitude, and trust in God.

XOXO
BT&HB