Why I Write.

" We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospect." - Anais Nin


I am not an inspiring author, nor did I ever think that I would put so much of my life out in the open for everyone to see.  Why did I start to write? Why did I chose this platform to release myself from the stories of my pass? Why? Today I realized why...because even if no one reads my work, it allows me to feel lighter and more at peace.

I always lived in my head.  For too long, every year and everything that ever happened was crowded one on top of the other inside of my head ...after awhile, it got to heavy to carry anymore - my head hurt to the point where I spent two years with a constant headache, I think back now and know that by the grace of God, I got through those years. 

Some of us don't ever really say what we truly want to say, we don't want hurt people, ourselves or admit the truth.  The truth is...I have been holding on to so many words, comments and hurts that they have affected me physically.  It is like I am holding on to the last 10 pounds and can't shake them...but it is time for them to go, I don't fear speaking my mind anymore...and I promised that my truth, will be the kind truth, because I have a voice, and it is ready to be heard.

One thing that weighs on me, is how am I suppose to go from someone who over the years failed to get her feeling and needs across, to someone who know what she wants and is not afraid to ask for it? I realized that what I thought was my best, just isn't good enough for me anymore.  It is time, and this is my time.

I write because I love the feeling.  No matter if it is an email, text, a work letter, blog or my weekly check in with my coach, placing what is in my heart on paper...heals me, I just love the feeling.  I keep a journal, and I write on occasion, and I have been told that what I have written on my blog is beautiful, helpful and very inspiring.  I guess because I write from my heart, and I write because I have been there and have lived though it ...we are never alone, when we read words written from the heart of another. 

It is true what Anais Nin said in her quote about, when you write about your life, you taste it twice, so it is up to you how it will taste the second time around.

XOXO
BT&HB