Twice this weekend I was reminded of "the truth setting you free", once it was on the bench behind the judge in the movie Real Steel ( awesome movie by the way and Hugh Jackman..five alarm fire), second on a show on tv, a man asked his boss, "which truth should I tell? , she replied, " the one that sets you free".
What does this mean to you? I know what the truth is for me right at this second, the truth is; I am hurt, angry, sad, sick, on the verge of tears, lost, stuck, not happy and totally pissed off at myself for feeling these things. I have to tell the truth, and the truth needs to be said to the following people:
My boss - get off your horse and remember that you once sat in my chair, and someone cut you some slack, so stop trying to put me down so I don't take your job, cause you know I can do it just a good as you, if not better.
My co-worker - You have a cold, cry me a river, not the end of the world and your acting like a over grown child. I wonder why anyone who sits in her chair and their have been four people in that job the last 4 years I have been in the department...watch, tomorrow she ain't gonna show.
V - Your actions speak louder than your words, and they hurt, they hurt a lot, I don't even have words for how I feel except, you need to choose, and mean it , prove it, and own up to it...you are what you are, but I can't be part of your life if you continue and it is not fair you dragged me into this, and tell me you love me and want to spend your life with me, it's a no brainer...sorry my friend, time to grow up and man up.
For everyone who thinks they know what is best for me and what I should "do". I can't help who I am, and who I love and what I love to do, so thanks for your two cents...but fleck off, and keep your nasty comments and garbage to yourself..I don't need it
Telling the truth set me free before, there are so many things that I want to say to my boss, to V to the nasty girl at the gym, but the truth I need to tell it first to...is myself, because once I admit the truth and see everything for what it is, no smoke screen, no rose coloured glasses and no "I love you"...cause that doesn't make everything alright and okay, it will set me free .
Which truth will set me free? The truth that, I love and love deeply, I work hard, and never give up, I can do it no matter what, I look only forward, regret nothing, and tell the truth....always.
xoxo
BT&HB
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