The Shadow of Hiding.

" And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places.  Those who don't believe in magic will never find it." - Roald Dahl

I have had plenty of "ah" moments, the effects would sometimes last for  weeks, days or a couple of hours, but nothing prepared me for the moment in which I realized, how much of my life has been spent hiding behind people and things.  I have to admit, I was put on the spot last week, and I didn't know how to answer or how to defend myself...because I had nothing to hide behind.  That afternoon, pushed me right out of the shadow of hiding, and into the light. 

I pondered this thought afterwards, and came up with a few things that I have hidden behind or used as an excuse to not do what I need to do, or to speak my truth in fear of being hurt.  I realized that I don't need to show the world my cards, that if I believe in something, I don't have to show the world that I do, I saw that no amount of rosary beads, candle, crystals, holy water, pictures and cards of angels and saint, red ribbons and all other things that we call on for guidance and protection...will actually protect me.  I am not saying that I don't believe in these things, but I think I am going to take the more personal route, like wearing your heart on your sleeve, showing what you believe can also work against you.  I never push my beliefs on others, nor does it bother me to see some showing how devout they are...but to the non-believer, and to the "not so good" people in the world..it throws them off and places you in the poor light, because you have found yours, and they have not. 

I cleaned off my desk on Thursday, I took down all that I have surrounded myself with.  It was like I placed all of the items I had in my heart and soul...not around for everyone to see.  It freed me, in a really strange way...one that uncluttered my mind and heart, allowed me to hold all the angels and saints closer to me, without having to show the world the ones I love most.

We live in a funny little time, a time where people say what they want, do what they want and feel that if they can't say or do, their rights as a human are being violated.  Showing the world you have thoughts and opinions are fine, but showing the world everything that makes you who you are, leaves no mystery, no guessing and no room for growth, because once someone has tagged you as a certain person, it could take a lifetime to convince them otherwise. 

Who has time to live in the shadows of life?  Not me, I took the high road away from that dark. stale place, and chose instead to life my life in colour, with no fear, no regrets, and once I admitted to myself all the hiding I was doing, everything is slowly becoming less of a struggle...Come out of the shadows my friends, and join me in this beautiful light that is life.

xoxo
BT&HB