I asked myself this question tonight, because something unexpected happen, after almost a year, I got an apology from V - read previous blogs and you will see how in love I was with him and how deeply he hurt me on my birthday no less.
Today is his birthday, and in a twist of fate, he is going through what he put me through back in November, and if that isn't weird enough, my birthday fell on a Friday just like his is today, which is Friday, the world is a funny little place.
He sent me an email telling me that he is sorry for all the heartache he put me through so close to my birthday, because he has been getting his heart ripped out all week and he wouldn't wish this on anyone, and he is truly sorry for all the hurt he caused me. He said that he just wanted to apologize and to let me know that he got his and it sucks.
Honestly, no matter the only reason he said he was sorry was because it was happening to him and it hurt, or maybe it was his way of righting his wrong with me and for his current relationship. I, honestly with all my heart forgave him a long time ago, I have no hate, no fear and actually no feeling at all. Part of me was like, OMG! karma...but I want you all to know that no matter how badly I was ever treated by someone, I would never wish anyone go through what I went through, because not everyone is strong enough to get through it. I believe in karma and what you do comes back to you, maybe not in this life, but in one life it will.
Do you all want to know if I responded?? I did, because when someone says they are sorry, you either accept their apology or you don't and you should tell them so. When I was angry at him, when he dumped me and ripped my heart out and threw it in the trash, the only thing I wanted from him was to say sorry and to see the way he treated me was no way to treat someone that you cared for. I got what I hoped for, what I wanted, in due time, I don't know how I would have responded if he would have admitted and said it earlier, but all I know, is that it takes a big person to admit their mistakes, and an even bigger one to forgive the person for their mistakes.
Is it ever too late? I never thought so, no matter what, it is never to late to say your sorry, to forgive, to move forward, to start anew, to love again, and to smile again.
It took me a long time to get to this point where in my heart my response to him was kind and to the point, after all this time, I feel really bad for him, because no matter how much it hurt me at the time, I know I had my family and friends to see me through it, but him..I am not sure the people in his life know the real him, and for that I am sad, because there are many people who care for him - I know I did, and deeply.
I saw something on line today, two things actually, one said..
" nothing hurts more than being ignored by the one you care about" & " relationships that start fast...end fast, so take your time."
Fitting, because V and I started fast and ended fast, and just like I was ignored by him, he is now in turn being ignored by the one who has his heart.
I learned today,that forgiveness is powerful, the universe brings you want you want, but not always when you want it, be kind to people because everything you do matters and that God truly does open one door when the other one closes.
Love & Light.
BT&HB
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